In our journey of life, we meet many people. People we mesh with, people we don't. Sometimes people are in our life for a short time. If we are lucky we have life long friends. I have always struggled in relationships. People often ask about my family, while not terrible and there are worse stories, its not the Walton's for sure. That relationship has set a path for some not so good social habits in my own life.
I believe that God brings people into our lives for specific purposes. I have seen this in my own life recently and it is overwelming. I have met some people who made me feel great, they fill me up in ways and make me smile. I have met some also recently who have made me feel like the stinky girl from high school. And what I have come to find out? I need both types.
I think as people, and especially women we can be extremely catty, unwelcoming, gossipy and be closed off from others. I have done it myself.
Everday I walk in to life trying to see it as a new day. I try to put a smile on my face. I try to appear approachable and I try to be welcoming. When I meet individuals who are unwelcoming or catty towards me, it literally devestates me. I take it so hard that it ruins my day. I also know that I am not the easiest person to approach or talk to. In groups, I become extremely nervous. I have a hard time making eye contact and if someone shows interest in me, I can be embarassed. Those who aren't the people I want to be around are just in a different place than I. And I am in a different place than others. They also show me what I don't want to do.
I am here to say that there are awesome people in this life. People who don't give up me. People who are there for the right reasons. People who show me how to be a daughter of God and friend that people want to be with. Please don't give up on me.
